Motherhood

Maybe I'm crazy, but being a mom has brought ups and downs, but it feels like I'm on a constant roller coaster. I do things wrong I do things right, and at the end of most days i feel as though I have fallen short. After years of abuse, I know exactly who not to be, and I try so hard to treat my kids 100% better than I ever was. I get really into holidays, I try and provide way more than they need yet, it always hits me late at night. Was it enough? Did I yell? Did that come off to harsh? Then my currently six year old was just diagnosed adhd, and I know alot of people think its some fluke, and even his Dr says well it could just be "learned behavior", because clearly I'm an idiot and do things wrong. I'm pretty sure its written on my forehead. Luckily we tried medication and it worked proving its not learned behavior, it was an actual issue and this mommy was saved.... This time... But when we don't always have the time to be the mom always at the school, or we are taking time on focusing our spare attention on our health, we look like awful parents. In the end we know there are tons of misconceptions and stereotypes that people think of, but how do you really know that your doing a good job? You can have all the money in the world, give your child the stars and yet, your child might not turn out the way you have hoped. I guess all we can do for now is hope, pray, and do our best to ensure the future or our children and our world.